Its all about her...Lazy Bum

Hrmmm...how would i start this post,guys you know what...since the day i got back from KL that night this post was blank,empty and untouch accept the title above.It was 3am or more if im not wrong...i cant sleep,just sit infront of my pc and trying to find the best way to start this post but still cant find any better way to describe my feeling that night and the pass 2days hanging out with "Lazy Bum".

As i thinking thru what to write i try ask my self is this what i think it is or this is just those pinch of feeling i have...its kinda headache to think that way so i ended this post with a blank and get back to my sleep.In the next day i thought it would be another normal day for me...work hard thru out the day,gym and back home online like usual but when all it stoped and sat infront of the pc i start felt weird...i cant find the reason why untill i saw someone isnt online in my msn friends list and i just remembered "Lazy Bum" just got her new job and have to work late =( .We usual chat around those time and do webbie each other as im tries to make her laught and smile each time we chat,im kinda enjoy seeing her smiles everytime we chat...not that im a pervert or what its just seeing her sweet smile blow my cares away,she makes my day.I like the way she force me to go back home msn with her but mostly i done only 3/5 =P .

In this whole week after my KL trip,i havent been my self lately...everytime i go out i doesnt feel right,like my body goin out to have fun but my mind are somewhere else that i cant concerntrate on whatever i do(accept work that is) all i think bout is "Lazy Bum" everyday im worried that did she taken her meal well(as she easily gastric),did she have enough sleep(as she just getting to blend in working hour routine),is she goin to work and back from work safely with or without friends transport(as i know KL and KK is not the same),when she bad mood or stressout from work and im not around to make her smile etc etc....i donno how to hold these feelin(cuz im a noob) and i dont want to be too obvious or over do things(scared will scare her away) ><

Im no profesional writer,im no profesional publisher...im just a down-to-earth kinda guy writing what i felt and trying to tell her how much i...cant say that its love cuz not yet in a relationship but its more then admire and like,just cant seem to find the right words to describe.So what i wrote above its kinda messy but its from my heart.

Shes is the girl that makes me scared to lose,the one who i cant walk away knowing she is mad,the one who makes me worried alot in distance way,the one i cant fall asleep without her being the last voice i hear,Lazy Bum.

I miss my "刘珊珊"

Just read a articles in a car magazine about an author wrotes about cars lover and how much he loves his wife "Helen"(is a JDM white Honda Civic Eg6).In the articles he wrote bout how cars lover craving for more of everything we can never be 100% satisfied with our own cars(thats just human nature) for example,slobber with delight,lust and envy everytime they get see their friend's car install with some nice "ice" and "bling" or some hardcore performence and rare racing accessories....and must not forget our favourite car magazine.It is demotivating and demoralizing lusting afrer all the goodies and part which currently out of reach and we'll lost the fire for enjoy our car for what she is in current state.Few months ago i just sold my beloved "刘珊珊"(is a JDM white Honda Ek4,as seen in the pic) i called her by that name cuz her plate number is 633,when u read it in chinese it should sound like a human name "刘珊珊".The 1st time i saw her my heart really skip a beat as im so in love with her,the curve of her body shape...the purity of her white colour....her sweet and not so loud exhaust sound oh im so in love.We've spend alot of precious time together thru out the year as we drove here and there,as been thru alot of exciting moment too...i still remember that i 1st giving her a pair of new "heels" and it was superb,i felt her gripness on every turn i make.Driving 120-150/kmh and cutting thru each possible car on road i could,it felt so great!!But still,as i writen above...every car owner still wont feel perfect about his own wife and so as me.The only thing that makes my wife not 100%(or maybe 90%) perfect is it gearbox,its still under AT gear instead or MT gear....i still cant feel the full potential of her power and the part i wanna change is over the budget im gonna give(beside it is fucking unworth cuz those part keep increasing each month) so im kinda lose the fire inside me.Suddenly the word "give her away and get a new 1" came out of mind in thin air...i was unhappy bout giving her away at start but then my last decision still the same-old-give-away routine.Before i sold her out i jumped in and give a spiritful ride on her for the last time and spend our one-on-one quality time togather.As the ride goes on...i felt sorry for letting her go and for the 1st time i cried for a car,i mean she not just a car...she is my soul,my wife and my partner in life when i lost my way in life and she was the 1 who give me a relaxing windy ride.Oh how i misses her now,hope the new owner treat her well and do better then me.

P.S : To all cars lover,when u felt down...out of sense of hopeless for your car,don't!Just grab the keys....start the engine and give it a long and spiritfull ride on her.You'll find the fire back and you'll never see the same light on your car again.

Wedding Dress

Some say its not over till its over,guess this is really over now and theres something i gotta say before i let you go.

When you have a fight with him,sometimes when you cry and feel sad and blue i become hopeful.My heart aches secretly inside whenever its happen,just a hint of your smile can make me feel fine again.I hold my breath,and bite my lips just to keep you from figuring out how i feel about you cuz im scared that we would drift apart from it.

In the church on your wedding day,when the music starts you vow to spend the rest of my live with him.How i prayed every night that this day would never come but it still came to me in the end.You look so pretty in the wedding dress that you love the most,sadly im not the one who was next to you sharing our vows,you'll never knew how i felt about you and hated you so...sometimes i wished you would be unhappy while seeing getting marry with him.

Now i have no more tears left to cry,when im by myself talk to you like you're here with me.Realising that you're gonna be his lady soon,i've felt so restless every night when think of it...maybe i've known all along this would be happening soon and every night i close my eyes and dream an endless dream just to be with you.

"Baby,dont take his hand when he comes to you coz you should be my lady..i've been waiting for you so long and you know it,look at me now" as i touchin you face and telling you how i felt....thats is what i wanna do on the wedding day but its all become unchangable reality now.Please be happy with him so that i can forget you and please forget how miserable i looked as its going to be unbearably hard for me to get thru it for a long while to come....

My Lacoste Shoe!!

HurayyyY~this is my new Cicak Hijau(Lacoste) shoes lol!! suddenly im so into Lacoste....this pair of shoes cost me Rm395 and this in the middle range price...there is as low Rm199(nt so nice design) and Rm500(simple and nice but i hv no idea would be tht expansive) but mostly i dont care cz i like the design...i dont mind the price as long its worth to buy^^....but i gt a fren jz bought a Rm2300+ Gucci shoes,imagine...whn u say "y would u buy such expensive shoes to wear and step under ur feet?" when there is ppl buying Rm2300+ Gucci shoes step under their feet!!!goshh.....

Its Been While.....Lost Track

Hello to my blog and hello to my reader(if there's any of them xD) its been long i've last update my blog,in between this post and my last post...many things happens and many stuff i gain and lost its jz too much to bring it up but jz simply list it up or post some pic to review so...enjoy^^

BlueBerry Ice-Cream Cheesecake...looks nice huh?belive or not...i bake it^^

Mesilau trip : Shuffle at bridge....dare u do it! !

Mesilau Trip : gang gang kita....lolx

Mesilau Trip : 火车虫,马陆(Milipede)...this baby lenght is about 1feat!

Mesilau Trip : nice waterfall huh...

Mesilau Trip : dono wots the name of the flower but it looks pretty...hehee

These are some pic from my KL trip...there r alot of them but kinda lazy to upload them all and its over 100+ of them...jz post some of good memories of my trip....hahaha....saw the food and the fridge fill wif thai virgin coconuts?its from a restaurant from StarHill called Jogoya...jz pay Rm88+ and eat all u can buffet fill with...errmmm....alot of foods and i mean ALOT!japanese,chinese,steamboat,ice cream...u name it and the food,2 thumbs up man!!eat till u vomit!!hahahah.....in our trip we've been to Redbox sing k till like 3am,theres alot of crazy pic i dint get it but my fren posted them on his facebook acc.Beside Redbox,we been to Genting for gamble and Sunway to play the "Jumping Machine" hahaha...It was a fun and stupid trip for us,quiet memorable as i seldom go trip wif a bunch of frens.Yep,this is my simple simple post for wot happen lately...i mean in 2k9 hahahhaha...2k10 post will coming soon....im soo soooo lazy ><

Struggle for Hope

I thouhgt faith was knocking on my door who knws whn i was gonna answer it and faith has gone away...when things came to you fast ,it goes even faster.Sometimes i wonder,could it be my problem tht i dint hold on to it and let it go away easily?Althought its a short moment of happiness,i truely treasure it in my heart cz to me...u bring hope to me whn i 1st meet u,i thought it was a new begining of a new chapter between us but then u left me alone without a reason even an explaination.Did you knw how suffered and how confusing my mind is this whole week?keep thinking the reason why?keep thinking izit anything happen?keep thinking izit i've done something wrong to u tht make u made at me or worst,till u have to treat me like this?Yes its easy for u to walk away without saying anything but how bout me?do you think of me,my feelings?.......i really donno how to continue write this anymore
Confront to me plz,dont let me wonder anymore....let compromise our needs 2gather and settle it once and for all


P.S
im still waiting...

Something's Gotta Give

Here is a great movie that i got from a friend of mine...its about a funny but yet touching(and kinda sexy too ^^). Harry Sanborn (Jack Nicholson) is a wealthy New York businessman who has had a habit of dating women under 30 for 40 years,a successful playwright Erica Barry (Diane Keaton) and the handsome young doctor, Julian Mercer (Keanu Reeves)
Soon, the two have fallen in love, they live very different lifestyles Erica's determination to be single and independent, and Harry's constant desire for new women and experiences combined with the fact that Harry is dating Marin and Julian has fallen for Erica, leave the two struggling to deal with their current relationships with others, but also work on their own....after that go watch this movie!hahahaha....
I was touch by the story and the meaning of the story...cuz u never know when ur gonna found your soulmate or a person you really in love with,but when your found that special some 1 it wont be that easy to optain/conquest in the relationship your looking for.Sure at 1st it would be destiny that brings each other togather but then its the hardwork and your own heart that leads you to a sweet and beautifull love of each other share...most important things is that it take 2 people to undestand each others to complete a relationship....like a a tango dance,it take 2 dancer to complete it and it wont be that beautifull if just 1 people dancing and the others not



P.S : I'll do anything and give anything to make it sweet and coulorfull in relationship^^